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Enlivening ourselves

Note: Dr. Norquist is on vacation this holiday weekend. We are re-running a letter that was published earlier in this column

Dear Dr. Norquist:
I can’t figure out why I got involved in such a destructive relationship. I think my family was better than average. My parents raised five kids, stayed together, and taught us about God and honesty and telling the truth. Then I went out and married someone who was emotionally and physically abusive. I was able to leave him – eventually. But I remember getting married while feeling ambivalent about it. I didn’t really want to marry my ex-husband. I just didn’t see another alternative. I thought only people who were abused got into abusive relationships, so I can’t understand why I stayed with my abusive ex-husband for six long years. Can you help me to understand this? It’s making it hard to trust my own judgment about future relationships.

Dr. Norquist responds:
How we allow ourselves to be treated in our intimate relationships is related to what we feel emotionally deserving of. As such, it is an outward expression of our level of self-esteem.
The question to ask yourself is not how your family looked from the outside; but rather, how did you come to feel about yourself, and your worth, as a consequence of your interpretation of your early childhood experiences? Did you emerge knowing you have the right to stand up for yourself when you are being mistreated?
You describe your family as having taught you about “God and honesty and telling the truth.” These are wonderful values; gifts for your spiritual life. However, you must also learn how to navigate through a world where many do not operate using these set of values. Your family may not have prepared you for protecting yourself from those who use others’ openness, honesty and trust for their own advantage.

It’s important to pay attention to the power balance in a relationship, and the degree to which both parties’ needs and feelings are respected and honored.
In abusive relationships, there is often a long lead time during which the abuser uses shame, guilt, criticism, fear, and control to decimate the abused person’s self-confidence and to establish dominance. Through isolating the abused from sources of outside support (like friends, work relationships, family, activities outside the home, etc.), the abused comes to feel weak, dependent, and unable to leave the relationship.
An extreme example of this dynamic is seen in battered women, who literally can’t see how to leave a relationship, even when their lives are at stake. I share this with you, not because I think you were a battered woman; but because there are similar dynamics in all abusive relationships, and this may help you to judge for yourself the nature of future relationships that you experience.
Develop your ability to stand up for yourself. Pay attention to the balance of power and level of respect for differing feelings and needs. Most importantly, develop and maintain a strong sense of security within yourself. Know that you do not need to be in a relationship in order to survive. A relationship not entered into out of need or fear is much more likely to be healthy.

Dr. Sallie Norquist is a licensed psychologist (NJ #2371) in private practice and is director of Chaitanya Counseling Services, a center for upliftment and enlivenment, in Hoboken.
Dr. Norquist and the staff of Chaitanya invite you to write them at Chaitanya Counseling Services, 51 Newark St., Suite 202, Hoboken, NJ 07030 or www.chaitanya.com or by e-mail at drnorquist@chaitanya.com, or by fax at (201) 656-4700. Questions can address various topics, including relationships, life’s stresses, difficulties, mysteries and dilemmas, as well as questions related to managing stress or alternative ways of understanding health-related concerns. 2009 Chaitanya Counseling Services

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